What Do I Really Want?

I have been hoping that I would get the recognition for the works that I did in the organisation. But I have waited in vain. Just felt that people are still bias despite that they have claimed to know and believe in Him. In thier hearts, only works of those who and who deserve more attention. As for those who are not the who and who, just heck lah. I believe to some, I belong to the latter. That is why till today, I still find it hard to reconcile that fact that a community of His believers, we can still have such a mindset and attitude. Sigh...

I knew that I have been judgemental about many others and things. I have been self-centred. Why have I been seeking the approval of man rather than the approval of Him? Don't I know that this is silly and it's in vain? Is it a display of poor understaning of who I am or what I am entrusted to do? Can I accept the fact that there are people better than me? The truth is that there are so many who are better than me. So, why do I fret? Can't I just accept it?

I believe that is the work of my pride and the result of poor understanding of the truth.

Forgive me, my Father in Heaven for such stupidity and wilfulness.

Mix feelings

After speaking to boss, I still feel not so settled yet about what I will want to do in the future. Should I continue to stay in this place? Or should I move on? What do I really want to do? Is it really true that there are too many transitions in life for me now? Sigh... I really need to give my future a good thought yar...

I am very excited that I have created a blog for myself! To read those thoughts on the attractive page does give me a sense of excitement. For I can share these thoughts with many others. I am thinking of how to decorate it and make it look more attractive! Now, I have understood why many others like to "pen down" their thoughts in blogs.